bad bad week...

It's 3;14am on saturday . That's right, and I am WIDE awake.... my story begins on Monday night of this past week.I have a cold and feel a bit not myself, but this was nothing compared to what the week would bring....... My choice for dinner that night was a frozen dinner I had never had before, ( now I eat frozen's all the time, just not this kind) it was a beef assortment, and before I ate it I kinda thought "ehh I may not like this" Well let me tell you ,,,,, I did not. Within about 12 minutes after eating it I felt pain. As the night proceeded I t became unbearable, like someone ripping out my stomach. Finally, whew... it happened, I puked, and felt awesome... for 3 minutes. Then went on puking a few times throughout the night, I even tried sleeping on our nasty bathroom, but was too repulsing. I took a total of 4 baths throughout the night too. Now for some reason when I get a fever I like baths, the unusual aspect about this is our bath-tub SUCKS and only fills up not even enough cover ones ( freezing)body, however this did not stop me. Tuesday was by far the worst day of this week, I couldn't take care of my kids, literally. I cancelled babysitting and had Caiden picked up by Rik's mom, but I still had Kierson,,,, my ever - so needy,mischevious 17 mo. old. It was beyond difficult to even get off the couch, to change his diaper and look at food to try to feed him. I spent the day in my bed , and mostly so did he. He destroyed my room, and tore apart all my magazines and had a blast scattering them throughout my room. He even layed right ontop of my head, had to be close,,,, had to be close,,,,, ughhh. Somehow , we made it through the day , and at night Rik took the kids and I slept and my fever broke in the night. These last few days I have been a zombie, very weak / no energy... havent left the house, still some lingering stomach pains.... I get my period and as always that is a blessing. LAst night Kierson was up for a few hours, sick, so was up periodially , but that was tolerable. As I woke today I thought , MAN today is the day I will be back to myself,!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can pick up, play with the kids instead of stare at them from the couch,,,,,, wel, no such luck. I had a burst of energy for about 2 hours, I did laundry and walked 10 minutes on the treadmill, ( wooo-hooo) and then I crash again, and this evening get a migraine. Soooo, I take Excedrin , and it doesnt work,,,, sooooo I take more,, and HELLO 3;30 am... here I am ready to GO!!!! Where had this energy been all week.??.. and goodness gracious what in the world am I going to be like tomorrow with NO SLEEP !!!!! It's amazing all the things that go through your head when your laying there,,, for hours,,,, songs from church from like 15 years ago ,( that one seems to be a hit in my head,,,weird huh? )Seriously wish I could go grocery shopping right now, or go outside for a quick run,,, anything to try to tire me out! I tried to wake Rik to tell him " hey, I'm still awake" , ( trying to get some sympathy) he moaned and turned over. darn, must be nice to be sleeping ever so softly......and this has been my bad bad week.

3 monthes....

ok , so maybe I only post every 3 monthes, BUT,,, not my fault ! I don't have a computer at home... so my only free time is when I'm here at the store, and I don't have to bodyguard Kierson so he does'nt demolish the whole place.. My mom is in town for the week, and of course Thanksgiving tomorrow. She has been amazing , always on the floor playing with the boys, reading stories, making crafts, dancing, feeding, bathing.... them..and even putting Kierson back to sleep when he decides to be awake during the night........ man she does it all. Of course we do get our time too, we are never into "going: and doing alot, we are content to sit on the couch, she with her tea, and me,, well usually eating something,,, and talk away. Today she and Caiden made " gingerbread houses", it was so cute to watch them, as it has always been a tradition for me growing up to do every year with her, now she was able to do it with her grandchild. Caiden wants to be with her/on her/or just very close proximinty to where-ever " Grammy "is . She even went to Pre-school with him yesterday =) Tomorrow is Thanksgiving, a time to reflect of all we are grateful for. No matter how much I can find things to complain about, God has really truly blessed us , and my hope is to focus on all his blessings =)

Adrenaline....

Is the name of the business that my husband and I are starting( ok , mostly him ) . We will be selling Powersports( snowmobiles,4-wheelers, motocyles.. etc) and Board Sports ( snowboards, wakeboards,skateboards etc...) as well as accesories and clothing. He has had his own side business selling used powersports and has done quite well, and now it's time to exspand. He is excellent at what he does , and has the MOST ambition of anyone I've ever known. As soon as we got the keys to this new shop he has been at it.... painting,new flooring,signs, electical... he has been here every night till midnight ! We live about 1.2 miles away from this place, so that is SO convenient! I come here at night with the boys, I can't help much b/c Kierson is very busy ripping holes in his pants,getting covered in paint, and eating nails . I am getting more and more excited about this new adventure in our lives, I will be working here and bring the boys along , when it's open.Caiden loves coming to the " shop" and hanging out with Rik. Last weekend I think I saw him a total of 36 minutes, he was right along with Rik going to "Menards, and Home Depot" numerous , and riding his bike around the cement floor. It's coming along, I will post more when I have some pics of our place to share ! Wish us luck

K's surgery... part 1

Kierson's surgery was August 1st. I found my self to be much more anxious than I thought Overall it went fine, it's such a weird feelingto be in a crowded " surergy waiting room" , knowing that everyone is waiting for that door to open when a Dr. will emerge to report how each one went. Only one parent was allowed backinto the recovery room, it is a room filled with kids that are just coming out of anestheisa. I heard cries, hysterics,,,, and saw ones fast alseep. My baby was laying there chugging some apple juice. My initail reaction was my eyes filled up with tears. I wasn't sure what to exspect, but he was bandaged up and swollen. The rest of the afternoon we were in a hospital room, and they monitored him. He had a rough time with the pain, sleeping - then waking up screaming,,, kinda a different scream. Lots of medicine was distributed, and we ended up needing to spend the night. I stayed over with him, I mostly just sat. I didnt want the tv, a movie or a book... I talked a bit on the phone, and held Kierson,,, I could take him out of his bed, just had to be careful of all the wires hooked up. His surgeon came to visit he next morning, and said he looks good, so we were able to come home. His eyes were swollen for a few days, and he had his times of sadness. He is back to himself now for sure- putting toys in the toilet, sneaking past my blockade to the stairs,eating rocks....he's definetly Kierson again. I took him out in public for the first time yesterday..... with a cute hat which can cover. A lady walked past me commened how cute he was . MAde me wonder, I highly doubt that she would say that if she saw what was under his hat. This is just the beginning of a 3-5 month process,,, each week he will be injected with "saline solution" to pump up the exspander to get bigger and bigger. There are many things people say " it's only temorarly, lucky it's not anything more serious.... all these things I know...but like my mom said it's still happening and he's still my baby,,, so yes at times I feel bad for thinking thoughts, and not be in perspective.... but it's happening,, and yes it will be over in a few monthes.

The Shack

My old childhood friend recently sent me a book in the mail. It opened my eyes and heart to how I personally view God, in a new amamzing way . It is not the typical "christian" book, there's a heart wrenching story-line , and is a book I definetly recommend. The book is called" The Shack"...... read it !

Kierson turns 1 yrs old

Happy Birthday to Kierson !!!!!

Kierson turned 1 on July 13th. Remembering back a whole year ago, after 18 hours of labor and having forcepts to retrieve him... here he is, our big baby is now 1 !!! He LOVED his cake, and I think Caiden LOVED new toys to play with =) My Mom was in town and we got out to do alot of fun things. We went to a beach near our house 2 times.... Kierson crawled out in the waves over and over, and Caiden wanted nothing to do with the water. He got new sand toys from Grammy and just played in the sand the whole time.We also went to he "lakefront" in Milwaukee. I love it there. The city is on teh water and they have awesome paths and a huge park,,, all with the gorgeous view of Lake Michigan. We walked along the paths near the water,Caiden pointing out the big rocks,boats and he's starting to ask" why" things are the way they are. My mom is much more patient and explains,, I on the other hand just tell him" b/c Jesus made it like that., Caiden flew his first kite !!!! Mom and I did the work of running and jumping around to get it up,,, and he stood there holding on tight. LAst year at the end of t he season we tore down our pool. =( I love swimming and would have loved to have the boys in there this year. However, Grammy bought us a "frog" pool, so yesterday we tried it out ,, it's right on our deck,,, and it the prerfest size for the boys to play in. So that's the latest here....

my "person"

If you are a true watcher of"Grey's Anatomy" , you will probably remember this phrase that Meredith and Christina( yang) exchange with eachother. They are eachother's "PERSON". Well, let me introduce you to my person, Laurie. I just came back from an awesome ( short) but awesome trip down to visit her in N.C. . ... to see her new home and catch a glimpse of her daily life there. I could list funny stories and tell how much I admire her , but beyond that,,, she is my person and I am honered and extremely lucky to have her in my life !